Saturday, October 17, 2020

Not GURPS: I'm Interested in Blogging again

I've been updating PseudoBot regularly still, but haven't blogged for a while. I'm kinda interested in doing so again. This is just a metapost with a few details of what has happened in my real life recently, and if that kinda boring minutiae is not your cup of tea, then there is no reason to see what is beyond the break. One important thing to note: from now on, my pronouns are she/her.

What happened in near two years?

What has happened since late 2018? In 2019, I largely took it easy with RPGs, as far as I remember, to work on myself. I met a lot of interesting people around the turn of 2019, and they inspired me to introspect a bit. The Sonoran desert and Phoenix were rough for my health, and my job was starting to cause me anxiety that was severe enough to have physiological effects. Basically, this lead to me to start seeing some doctors around Summer, and by late Autumn, it seemed that everything that was going on was not the problem itself, but the symptom of a problem, the previously mentioned stress. So going away from MDs and specialists, I was recommended therapy.
On the very first session, I believe, it was October, or November, I mentioned I had two reasons I was interested in therapy: #1, because of the anxiety, and #2, something that was a long time coming, that I wanted to transition.
It seems weird that it was easy to say when it was a big secret, and anyone that knew me might have thought it was a big surprise, but somehow, when I was finally in that office, it came out with no provocation.
I'd been talking about it on and off with my wife for years, and for whatever reason, the time seemed right. Going into Winter, I started HRT, and a job search for some place healthier, both physically, and mentally, besides Phoenix, AZ.
Ten months of hormones,
Eleven months of makeup
practice, Two months of laser
hair removal, Eight months of
PRP.
Nothing really interesting happens around the turn of the year, a GURPS game that I was running for a while totally ran out of steam, my wife and I adjusted, a worldwide plague made it so I had to work from home (I don't know the best way to say this, but in a weird way, there could not have been a better time for a years long shelter at home order. I do understand the gravity of the situation.) And I finally get a job (I'm developing medical web apps to help patients and caregivers track medication dosages and metric readings) in California, with a start date of 4/20 (c:) but, again, with the shelter at home orders, they didn't mind that it took until nearly the beginning of August to move.
In the end, I feel like all my ducks are now in a row, and my life is moving in a much better direction. I'm less stressed, I'm becoming who I've wanted to be (or who I've always secretly been) for decades, and I'm madly happy for the first time in over a decade, if not two.
So my new name is Patricia and my pronouns are she/her. I have received the official decree that my legal name and gender change are hereby effective. I think I've scrubbed my old name from as many posts as I can remember, but if you see it anywhere, I'd appreciate being let known in confidence.

What is there to Blog?

A ton of GURPS books have come out since last I wrote, and my reviews seemed to have always been especially popular among all my other post types, so there's that. I plan to take it easy, but at least one post a month. I'm also starting to think I might be ready for a new big project besides PseudoBot. I feel like I am ready to refactor PseudoBot a bit to make it open source on GitHub, but there's a lot of kludgey stuff all over, and I'd like to reuse a big chunk of the code, so I'd like to factor out something of a library from the bot logic that I could take into "that next big thing."

2 comments:

  1. Slightly late, but good to see you blogging again!

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    1. I always enjoyed following your blog, I'm optimistic about being back.

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